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Keith
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21th june '85
19years old
singaporean
chinese
gemini boi
temasek polytechnic
exceptionally emotional

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cycling
singing
playing games

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flirtts
two headed-snake
backstabberrs
attitude problem ppl
girls who are chor lor
girls who are lian
exams
guys who act innocent
studying
alone at home
being hurt

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pass my poly and graduate
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pass my driving and get my class 3 license

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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

hmmm...it has been days since i last updated...haiz...today feeling quite down so got the urge to come inside here and write something...ignore wat i will write bah...should be all rubbish...

wat a tired day it is today...but it's a meaningful day...although burned my hand...today went to choa chu kang to pray my dad...so fast...a year has passed...but i'm still missing him...the moment i saw his photo, tears roll down automatically...really miss him...i am such a failure...mum's gone and yet nv cherish my own dad...memories flashes back...daddy, i really miss you...how i wish i had gone with him for breakfast last time...how i wish i had accompany him anywhere last time...how i wish i had listen to wat he said last time...last time...how about now...he can only be a part of my memories...even till the day he pass away, he is still thinking about me in his mind...the words he said i will never ever forget...haiz...

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Monday, March 28, 2005

a story to share with everyone...

This is a story about a girl who fell in love with her best friend..Jin and I are best fren..we do anything that best fren do...One day, i realised that i love him... so i decided to confessed this feeling to him one nite where we camp with other frens... he said yes, he would be my boyfren..So we went on like other couple's life does. Watch movie, walk in park, eat together, go to beach....but life's not fun as when we are still best fren....he also doesnt talk much, or act like we are bestfren, close and share everything... for me,he is not a suitable or loving a boyfren... but i kept quietly this on my mind...But since the day he bcome my boyfren,he every single day would give me a small teddybear...At first i thought it was lovely, but till now, i wonder why he would gav me this...One day, i was walking alone at a park.Then i saw Jin talking to another gurl. I walk towards him and i over heard him saying "i love u' to the gurl. I was really angry and i run home coz Jin never told mehe love me all the time we been boyfren and gurlfren.Then, midnite that day, he come to myhouse and i open the door. He just passed me the teddy bear that he used to give me everyday and said sorry coz i didn't giv u this today. i was really angry and i shouted at him,"Why u alwiz giv me this crap? All i wan to hear from u is... "I love you" that's it, izit too hard???"Jin kept quiet. He took my hand and place the teddy bear on my palm and left away..i throw the teddy bear into my cupboard.The next day, Jin asked me out. We mee tat bus stop near my house..i walk there and then he just gav me a big teddy bear, my anger was still in high position, and i throw the teddy to the middle of the road. He keep quiet and then he go to the middle of the road and pick the teddy up. He dint realise a truck was coming towards him. I shouted at him not to pick it up and he was about look at me, and...........................*Bang*. "JIN!!!!!!" I shouted... the next minute he was lying on the road, covered with blood. He was sent to the hospital but it's too late...i lost him...forever....After attended his funeral, i went back home and i hug all the teddy bear he gav me since the day we became couples... i counted the teddy bear one by one...1...2....3...101...230....300..364...and the last teddy bear he gave covered with his blood was the365th... it had been a year we became couple... i squeeze the teddy bear with the tears flow....suddenly...*I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~* I was shocked.. i looked at the teddys...and i take one of it, and try to press on his tummy.. *I love you~* *I love you~* I tried each and every teddy bear he gav me... *I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~* *I love you~* ......................And the biggest and the last teddy bear Jin gave me, I squeeze his big tummy... *felicia, today is our very first annivery being a couple after a year... i always love you, yesterday, today, and forever........ I love you.... *I dropped the teddy bear........I never realised that Jin had actually told me those words.. every single day.... till today...I slowly picked the teddy and i whispered to the teddy's ear.. "i love you too, Jin..and i always did........For the guys/gals that you lovedTell them "i'll love u more than i cud b....i'll care abt u more than i'm carin abtmyself...u're always the 1 in my heart..."

come on girls...know who treats u the best and be the best to him too...

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Monday, March 21, 2005

hmmmm...let me see...wow...12 days nv blog le...nearly half a month...lolx...nah not in the mood to blog...today ar? juz feeling a bit...accused?! lolx...so come in here type something lor...first day of exam...tink will flag also...haha but mayb can pass...section B = shit! kan hard sial...after exam today, i can see quite a number of ppl will flang this exam...haha...cuz hor all come out keep saying either like that lor or ok lor or see luck lor or "wah very hard leh"...lolx...recently brought some cds...Boa's and a new singer call shi wen bin aka Ben...his songs quite nice, meaningful and his voice is good...come back my blog and check bah i will post one of his song which is the one i like most here for all to listen =X...haiz...last 2 days my ear bleed when taking out my earring...kaoz...dunno how to put back the earring but bo bian...anyhow poke...see le my reaction = "eeeeeeeeeeee"...jialat sial...ting ting tell me careful dun let it fa yan...heng today condition get better le...dun feel any pain...good good...dun fa yan, i'm scared of that man...last night had a strange dream...i dreamt of her...so sweet...but that will not happen...if that day really happens to come by, even if i were to die, it doesn't matter anymore...satisfied with life...got the thing i wanted most...as for the content of the dream, ask me urself bah...no 100% divulge ar =D~

well, today i cant break my daily routine...used to wake up at 630 for something...i tried not setting alarm...but ended up i wake up at 630 myself...guess it has already became a part of me...sounds so painful to hear myself letting u go when u became a part of me...well, i'm trying to change myself to be an optimistic person...everything's gonna be alright...smile and troubles will be all gone...why is it that true heart hurt me the most...

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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

finally...projects over...but exams not over yet...there's one subject i might get debarred...hope i wont get debarred...rush until so tired juz for the projects...term test passed too...dun wish to let all efforts being flushed down into the drain...damn tired man...no time for blogging...it's been a few days since i update...seems like everything in my life have changed...my frenz had all come back into my mind once again...haiz...no girls can seems to enter my mind now le...mayb still left with her bah...a person i once together with...some memories seems to flash back once again...happy moments...and also...sad moments...well...she should know that i'm refering to her...well...enough of love problems le...concentrate on exams now and then on m driving and gyming...=X...today went tampines for sushi with my "da lao po" and "er lao po"...lolx...had a great time...nv felt so relax for the past few weeks...omg...i pierced my ear! finally i dare le...haha...actually wanted to back out halfway but they dragged me...well...i cant imagine that ear piercing isn't painful at all...only something touching my ear...scared me sial...lolx! looks better with that piercing bah...hope dun "fa yan" ar...take good care of it for the moment...=X...needa relax for tonight...gotta do my cmsk oral presentation preparation tml le...having presentation on friday...sobz...muz wear handsome handsome go there with good performance...lolx! use my eyes to electrocute the tutor...=P...today actually wanted to sell my D500C to my mei de...intending to get 6680 and also she seems to like it very much...so intended to sell her cheap...but one thing is...sis scolded...and also come to tink of it, wasting money and also 6680 is almost the same as 7610 except of 1.3Mp and 3G...for colour display, 7610 is good enough for me and 3G is totally useless to me...and...i also like D500C =P...so i told her sorry...gonna keep it...well sorry mei...made u disappointed...=D...haiz...suddenly have the feeling of having someone to talk to...no one's there...even she's asleep long ago le...haiz...tink gonna take a rest too bah...well...bathed long time ago...no needa wait for hair to dry...=X tata peeps....~

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Friday, March 04, 2005

these few days had been a busy day for me...nv been home early...done with my part in the project and helped my group mates with their part...so tiring...nv had time to start with another one...and also helping my fren do another project...which is i didn't do much...wat he asked me to do then i do...he' good enough to do those harder part himself...well had to thank him...a fren indeed...found some pics for him but when he msn me i was outside...dotz...so sorry...well today i brought my new phone samsung D500C...a very nice phone...nice design...nice functions...but the only thing is that it cant insert mmc card...haiz...but nv regret buying that phone...hope the price wont drop...today saw her blog...she say she's being treated like a toy...but i still tink that it's me who's being treated like a toy...know the song in my blog? hai hui xiang jian ta, que hai yao wo gen shui...is this true love? i love u wholeheartly...but u cant do the same thing...so i chosen to gave up...very tired of those sad things le...chris can be there whenever u need someone, but i cant...distance is a barrier between us, i dun mind travelling but u cant wait for me to arrive...and i can see that u concern about chris's feeling more than mine...and i'll be quite busy these few weeks until my exam is over...i cant be there when u need me...if u have chosen to go back to him, go ahead...u have my support...i needa take a break...haiz...feeling sick today again...flu coming back...cough too...not again...when will this stop...giddy...vomitted...haiz...forget it...juz die off is better...seems like i'm going to die...too tired le...-gone-

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Wednesday, March 02, 2005

it's been 3 days since i last updated le...so busy with projects...helping group members do if not i will not be able to compile with them...tml gonna continue again...haiz sianz...end quickly man...this is the second last week to study week and exam le...jia you...dun wanna any supp paper...feeling regretted with my past results le...gonna make myself as busy as possible too...this will make time pass faster...how i wish time juz fly through whenever i blink...but impossible...haiz...gonna go and slp soon le...projects i'm coming again le! but before i slp, please read the passage below...so far i haven a girl who is like this...and i know i wont able to...it's not that i dun fulfil these expectation but it's the girl who insist on breaking my heart...but this passage sounds romantic though...

Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind. If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings. Girls are there to be loved, not toyed around.Love her for who she is. Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she will stay that way. You change any part of her, you'll change her forever. Don't substitute her for anyone else, they are just unique in their own ways.Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed a lot for you so you'd better really treassure her. She could have just got up & date a so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead all because of love. So love her guys, not play with her.Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. Ifyou're with her, love her.Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll endup loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be. I've been there & I know how it feels.Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could.Like another girl while you're in a relationship?Then I think it's time you remain single for a while.Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do.Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do the same.Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling",how would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.Socialise only when you're single. You socialise & flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible.Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives lifejust like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done.Money doesn't exist between couples, it's thelove.Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day.Loveher as if each day is the last.Sweet talking only applies for singles, not for attached guys. Do that & you'll really break your girl's heart.It isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.Promise her & make sure you never break the promise. Swear to her & make sure you live up to your word. Pledge your love to her & her alone.Loving her is giving her your heart to break it but trusting her not to. Same goes for her,giving u her heart means allowing u to break it and trusting u not to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it.Should'nt you do the same thing as well? That's love.Give her your heart, your life, your everything. Lay down your life & prepare to die for her when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day, she can never live without you.Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry on living as per normal, she'd die.Its her heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how she feels?Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love her till old age, love her till death. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly loved her.She chose you because she believes that you can fulfil your promise. Win her heart & love her over.

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Monday, February 28, 2005

early morning not feeling very well again...dotzations...well i guess if i want to fully recover, i guess will be after my exams...haiz...and also when everything is solved...today first thing in the morning received a sms from alice asking me whether i'm alright or not...thank you for caring me so much...i'm alright...the nxt sms i received was from her...asking me whether......haiz...do i have the right to say "no"? the answer is no...i dun have any right...why do u have to ask me? juz keep me in the dark and go...dun ask me...mayb this will makes me feel better...anyway, felt very sad about wat had happened these past few weeks...especially last few days...well...i am juz passerby...an useless passerby...cant do anything...wat ever i did was juz to prove something and u should know wat...but...if u wanna love me, plz love me wholeheartedly...this is my wish...my tears had already been dried up...i'm feeling numb le...the pain has already turned numb in my body...mayb u should consider abt wat u are going to do...i'll always be there to support u no matter wat u do...gonna go to school le...bye bye...

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